Not enough time

Life is short, There are so many things I want to do but I don't think there is enough time to do it. Last night I heard something really tragic happen to someone in my past. What do I do? What do I say? There are so many things going through my mind right now that I can't even function.

I say to myself, "be strong" but what does that really do? Everything seems to be going down hill again.. Or maybe it's just me. The old memories are coming back again and now I'm stuck, confused, ??? Va, I miss you. You've always been mean to me but that's okay. Because I know deep down in your heart how you really felt. I am worried about. Whether it's in my place to care or not. I wish you were still around for me just to say a few more things to you. There's so many things left unsaid.

Why do I think of you more and more, Is it just cause I feel bad? The looks you give me shiver down my spine. Does it really have to end like this? My mind is in the past while I'm still here in the present. I just need space.